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I just love the story that Christine Caine tells of one of her classes at Sydney University. “Her professor projected a picture of a small black dot in the middle of a very big white screen, then asked the class, “What do you see?”

Every student responded to his question the same way, “A black dot.”

He paused then asked the same question again, “What do you see?”

She went on to say that every single student in that class failed to see the big white space around the dot! Their eyes naturally focused on the black dot.”

This is what Christine added to her story:

The same is true in our lives, and that’s why it is essential that we renew our minds so

we can see the bigger picture. The more we focus on God and magnify Him in our

lives, the smaller the black dot will become.” Christine Caine~Fist Things First

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As soon as I read her words I understood the black dot concept. I confess that I am a black dot seeker. I have a hard time taking my eyes off of the dot and seeing the white space with my physical eyes. And it’s a constant prayer of mine, this John 3:30, that He would help me to decrease, and He does it, and it hurts, and my black dot grows bigger.

But like a mad bull I continue to press in, I lower my head and close my eyes and charge, “Lord, help me to decrease so that You may increase!” And once again He does it,and it hurts and the black dot grows bigger, and bigger, and bigger . . . . .

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And I cling to the dot until my knuckles turn white, not daring to let go, and the more I focus on the dot, the more I hold onto the dot. The dot increases and the white decrease and my heart grows heavy.

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Then I realize that it’s the actual clinging that causes so much pain. The constant prying my hand away rips my heart in pieces in the process of it. “And who will save me from myself?”

In my stubborn and willful nature in refusing to let go, it finally becomes so clear. The more I focus on the white space, the smaller that black dot becomes. My death grip relaxes a bit, just enough to allow His peace to creep into my heart, just enough to see a glimpse of His truth, of His promises. And it is enough.

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To actually decrease I must not look to the dot, I must constantly direct my focus on the white space. He is so loving and tender in the revealing, and He refuses to give up on me, to leave me or forsake me, He consistently tends to me, leading me in His way. To live in His truth I must endure the pain of decreasing if I am to have His future of peace and a hope. (Jer. 29:11) It is in the seeking Him, searching Him with all my heart that leads to my decreasing, so that He may increase, so that He may be glorified. So I will continue to cry out to Him, “Lord! Help me to decrease so that You may increase!”

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When I truly seek Him, He is absolutely everywhere. Every word I read presses it in deeper, every conversation, every scripture, and every song. So I leave you with one of my favorites.

Watermarks Friend for Life~written by Nathaniel and Christy Nockels:

Friend for life who took my pain
The cleansing flood You remain
Wash over me till I can’t be seen

Living Water swallow me
Deepest River wash me clean
Jesus, Savior more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

Come and ruin me with Your love
So no other is enough
Come and leave Your mark on me
Jesus, more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

Friend for life I’ll carry on
Through the power of this blood
Let it spill over, over till I can’t be seen

Living Water swallow me
Deepest River wash me clean
And Jesus, Savior more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

Come and ruin me with Your love
So no other is enough
And come and leave Your mark on me
Jesus, more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

Deep is the stain inside of me
Deeper the River washes me clean
I’ve been the one who cries in the night
You’ve been the Friend of my life

Living Water swallow me
Deepest River wash me clean
Jesus, Savior more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

Come and ruin me with Your love
So no other is enough
Come and leave Your mark on me
Jesus, more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee
Jesus, more of Thee

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But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

Romans 7:23-25

The Pear

I have not ever enjoyed a pear more, nor shall I ever.

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My little darlin has been a tad persnickety lately. With some diet restrictions and her picky palate, it has gotten harder and harder for me to find ways to please her taste buds. So when she told me that she wanted to eat I found sound crackers, thinking that she would love them, but after one bite she shook her little head at me, “No mimi!” She wasn’t having it.

So I handed her a pear.

She studied it carefully, turning it around and around in her hand, then she slowly took a bite, cautious and deliberate.

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She chewed the pear slowly and I could see her thinking about it as she continued to analyse it, then she took another bite, (or in her own words, “the nother” bite.)

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Suddenly she began to tear into it, she just dove in face first.

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She could not eat it fast enough! Slurping and smacking as juice trailed down her chin and onto her dress,  but she did not seem to notice as she enjoyed the sweet, succulent fruit.

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I could not contain the laughter that welled up from within my heart. I loved watching her enjoy her pear and I was snapping pictures as fast as I could, trying to capture her in this precious moment.

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Surely this is how God meant for us to enjoy His gifts to us, with total delight and abandon, totally eating up His blessings with absolutely no restraint, wholeheartedly and perfectly!

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Who would have ever thought that one little pear would bring such happiness to two people, each enjoying it in their own special way.

Well, the Lord knew and who knows, maybe He created the pear for just this moment. He is so good like that!

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But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  Galatians 5:22

My Day With Aria

My special time with Aria has gotten to be less and less lately. With school, responsibilities and conflicting schedules, it makes it hard for us to spend time together. But now that school is out for summer, dance recital behind us and a little more time on our hands, we make the most out of it.

We spent some time working with pastels, expanding on the pond unit making lily pads.

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We studied the nest that gumps had found and put in the apple tree for her to find.

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She picked strawberries, and played in captured rain water.

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She played Barbie dolls, and drew on the whiteboard.

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And our time ended much, much too quickly.

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The bird also has found a house, And the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young, Even Your altars, O LORD of hosts, My King and my God. Psalms 84:3

Debrecen Hungary is the home to the Deri Museum. Even though this amazing museum holds so much history, culture and educational attractions, there was one room that blew me away. It held the famous Trilogy paintings.

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These three paintings were in a room all of their own, a special wing of the Deri Meseum.

The floor to ceiling paintings completely covered three walls. The fourth wall held the door, and in front of the door there were rows of chairs for people to sit.

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There was an immediate hush that fell over us as we entered this room. A reverent feeling filled the air, holy like. Most people sat in the chairs quiet and thoughtful, there was a peaceful presence felt by all who entered, a remarkable feeling that left you awestruck.

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These bigger than life paintings were painted by the famous Hungarian artist Mihály Munkácsy from 1882-1896. His first painting was of Christ in front of Pilate.

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Then in 1884 he painted the Golgotha painting.

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Ecce Homo completed the Trilogy in 1896, a Latin phrase that translates “Behold the Man.”

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At one point all three paintings were sold, and after many years of exchanging owners these magnificent painting have found their way back onto Hungarian soil, to stay.

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Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God!Therefore the world does not know us, because it did not know Him Beloved, now we are children of God; and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be, but we know that when He is revealed, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is. And everyone who has this hope in Him purifies himself, just as He is pure. 1 John 3:1-3

By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren.  1 John 3:16

The Hungarian Parliament stands majestic overlooking the Danube River in Budapest Hungary. The resplendent building can best be viewed from the Buda side of the river, however it’s spectacular beauty can be seen from almost anywhere along the Danube.

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It was told to us that the Hungarian Parliament is unusually large for a country the size of Hungary. But the sad truth is, that when the Parliament building was built, Hungary was much, much bigger. During the first world war Hungary lost 2/3 of their beloved country, and 1/2 of their population, a deep, bitter pain that still stings at the hearts of the Hungarian people, and rightly so.

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We had the great pleasure to tour the Parliament building on our last trip to Hungary.

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I took pictures from the back, along the side, and from the front of this striking building. The Parliament building is so grand and there was so much to take in. The Building is in the Gothic Revival style, it is 879 feet long and 404 feet wide. It’s interior includes 10 courtyards, 13 elevators, 27 gates, 29 staircases and 692 rooms. The building is 315 feet high and it is the largest building in Hungary and one of the two tallest buildings in Budapest.

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Outside of the front stands an amazing courtyard with statues of every kind, each having it’s own story to tell.

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We toured the inside and though I am so grateful that I got to go inside and see it, I was a little disappointed. We were only allowed to see three areas. It was so dark I could hardly take pictures, and we were not allowed to take any pictures in the central hall.

The central hall was amazing and it held the Holy Crown of Hungary, encased in the center of the room.

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I was able to take pictures of one of the assembly halls.

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Everything about this building was beautiful and ornate. Considerable attention was given to absolutely every detail.

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One more thing checked off my Hungary bucket list. It was truly a trill to see this magnificent building.

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Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God. Romans 13:1

The Danube River

The Danube River is the second longest river in Central and Eastern Europe, and it makes it’s twist and turns through many of the beautiful European countries, such as Germany, Austria, Slovakia, Bulgaria, Ukraine and Romania, just to name a few. But I know it from my trips to Hungary.

Flying into Budapest Hungary, the magnificent river welcomes all as they pass over it, grand and majestic and breathtakingly beautiful. The splendid river holds so much within it’s banks. Beautiful to behold, yet it hides the secrets of more than a thousand years of heartache, pain, suffering and terror. It also has the allure of it’s fascinating beauty, enticing and captivating all who lay eyes upon it. It snakes it’s way through the land, adding charm and pleasure, attracting man and beast alike.

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I have had several experiences with the Danube River. Two of which has been on my Hungary bucket list.

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I wanted to put my foot in the Danube, so one by one, my friends and I made our way down the concrete steps and stuck our foot in the river. Totally awesome! Now, I do realize that I look a little silly, but please just be happy for me.

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The second thing on my bucket list was to walk the famous Chain Bridge.The Chain bridge is just one of many bridges that separates Buda and Pest. Most of the bridges are ornate and have some kind of statue on them.  I have seen the Chain bridge on a couple of movies and have always been drawn to it. So we made a point this year to walk the bridge.

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This was an exciting moment for me. I stood on the bridge and took some pictures of the Danube.

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The first year we were in Budapest we took a river tour. We rode an open river boat and I drank orange fanta (My drink of choice while I am in Hungary), and slowly slipped along the river. It was very peaceful and relaxing, just sitting back and taking in the amazing views on both sides of the Danube.

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Another one of the beautiful bridges, I am guessing that there is a bridge about every mile or so.

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The Buda side holds large hills that have their own stories; the good, the bad and the ugly. We wore headphones and listened to the stories of each landmark that we passed.

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And still another bridge.

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The Danube River has the perfect view of Parliament, an indescribably beautiful building. We did tour Parliament and I will write about that later, but for now, just sit back, relax and enjoy the view.

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We ended our evening having dinner on the Danube. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day. The boat was awesome and the food was superb, as always.

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We took our time and lingered well after dark. We watched the sun go down on the Danube and sat in awe as darkness fell over the great city of Budapest.

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“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden;  Matthew 5:14

The Shoe Memorial

The beautiful picturesque Danube river separates  Buda and Pest of Budapest. Each side just as beautiful as the other and each holds numerous attractions.

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But on the Pest side, just a little way from Parliament stands the famous Shoe memorial.

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Heartbreaking and haunting is this memorial, a sobering realization of some of the evil that took place during the second world war.

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A gut wrenching story too painful to tell, but it must be told, so the story speaks loud through this memorial.

The memorial consist of 60 pairs of shoes along the river. The shoes are made of metal and set in the concrete on the Danube embankment.

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It was set up in 2005 to tell the horrific story of the Hungarian Jewish victims that were lined up at the embankment then shot into the Danube River.

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There are three cast iron memorial signs in Hungarian, English and Hebrew, that reads:

“To the memory of victims shot into the Danube by Arrow Cross militiamen in 1944-45”

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But Jesus turning to them said, “Daughters of Jerusalem, stop weeping for Me, but weep for yourselves and for your children. “For behold, the days are coming when they will say, ‘Blessed are the barren, and the wombs that never bore, and the breasts that never nursed.’ “Then they will begin TO SAY TO THE MOUNTAINS, ‘FALL ON US,’ AND TO THE HILLS, ‘COVER US. “For if they do these things when the tree is green, what will happen when it is dry?”  Luke 23:28-31

The Dohany Street Synagogue in Budapest Hungary is the largest Synagogue in Europe, and it ranked number one on my list of things to do.

The book tells that the facade of the synagogue plays tribute to the Temple of Solomon as the 19th century imagined it. It was indeed a beautiful sight. It was so massive that I could not get it all in one picture

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These are pictures that I took at one side of the synagogue.

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The inside of the temple literally took my breath away. Beautiful beyond imagination, filled with splendor and every single nook and cranny held a delight to the eye. I could not take it all in and I scrambled around with my camera trying to capture what my eyes were beholding, but it is not possible to relay the beauty through the lens of a camera. Everything was so rich in color, texture and history.

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We spent several minutes taking pictures and touching what we could lay our hands on. It was an amazing feeling being there. There was a very sweet, reverent atmosphere filling the temple and my heart longed to sit in on one of the services that were once held here.

The ceilings are covered with the star of David, and there is a room of stained glass windows, each tells a story from the bible.

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The synagogue touched me deeply and completely changed me forever. It is one thing to live an ocean away and hear stories of the horrors or WWII, but quite another to actually see the destruction, and repercussion of it. To walk on the same soil that is mingled with the blood, pain, and tears of it’s victims. The evil  has left it’s mark there and it sends chills up your spine and leaves you shaken.

The museum was divided up into several parts, each showing past lives of the Jewish people. The first part was of the Jewish temple.

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The second part was things used in the Jewish holidays and festivals.

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The 3rd showed items from the ordinary, everyday lives of the Jewish people.

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One part of the museum was of the holocaust and it was painful to see. The whole atmosphere changed as we entered that part of the museum, we could feel it hanging thick. Our guide told us stories that ripped at our hearts and we toured in a silent  and despondent state.

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As she told stories and explained pictures we swallowed hard, and the tears feel freely. Still . . so hard to understand.

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She explained the list, the one that Hitler had, keeping a census of all of the Jewish people in the surrounding countries, years before the holocaust!

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And a picture of a young woman had been discovered many years later, it had been taken of her by the Nazis, all part of the census.

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But even through the evil of it all, the Lord had His people there, and there are pictures of some of these heroic people that bravely stood up and did everything they could do to help.

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We were then led down a stairwell, concrete, tunnel like, out into the courtyard. The beautiful courtyard had it’s own horrors to tell, and our guide lead us on a journey back in time to the very pit of hell.

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This courtyard is now a mass grave. It took them a long time to find the names and place the markers of each person that now lays beneath this courtyard soil.

Pictures line the walkway that wraps around, and I took a photo of one, standing so that you can see the exact spot of the courtyard, then and now.

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IMG_0172At the back of the courtyard is a memorial for it is the burial ground of 2,281 people who had died in the ghetto. The ghetto is located just directly behind the synagogue.

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The Heroes Temple stands at the very back of the courtyard, just beyond the memorial.

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And another section behind the synagogue was Jewish graves, and little rocks lined each grave.

The American actor Tony Curtis gave in honor of his daughter, Jamie Lee Curtis the symbolic weeping willow, and also that of the upside down menorah, the work of sculptor Imre Varga. The silver leaves on the lightly gleaming tree bear the names of thirty thousand Jewish martyrs. The Weeping Willow stands as a reminder of the six-hundred thousand Hungarian victims of the Holocaust.

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In front of the courtyard, at the side of the synagogue starts the barricade, holding the Jewish people within the confines of the ghetto area.

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Across the street and beyond are the beautiful apartment homes that once belonged to the Jewish people and is now part of the Jewish Quarter. We did not tour the ghetto area but did walk through some of the Jewish Quarter.

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I purchased a memorial of my time here at the Dohany Street Synagogue.

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“Consider now, for the LORD has chosen you to build a house for the sanctuary; be courageous and act.”  1 Chronicles 28:10

I like to add to my vintage pattern collection as often as possible, Etsy being my main resource. But the prices of vintage patterns has gotten out of sight, making it harder for me to purchase them. I really appreciate an Etsy shop that has reasonable prices on their patterns. This particular shop is a wonderful example, and this pattern came from this shop.

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I made this pattern for Aria with fabric that I have had so long that I can’t remember where I got it. Chances are it was purchased at JoAnn’s.

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It’s a simple little dress with a contrast fabric button tab in the front. I used bias strips to finish the neckline and arms with the same contrast fabric.

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It zips up the back.

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Aria is past the stage of ruffles and lace, but she is still in love with color, so this was the perfect choice for my little-big girl.

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A time to tear apart and a time to sew together; A time to be silent and a time to speak. Ecclesiastes 3:7

Let me introduce you to an amazing designer,  Svetlana Volkova from Tweedysheep. You can find her at her Raverly store here.

Tweedysheep has become my favorite pattern store. Her patterns are unique, doable and most definitely beautiful.  You will be seeing more of her awesome patterns on here.

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I will confess that this pattern intimidated me and it certainly took my full attention at times, but I was determined to knit it. I discovered that it was not as hard as it looked and actually came together nicely. The pattern instructions were very clear and I had no problems following them.

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This sweater has a gorgeous lace pattern that flows from the neck line down the sleeves. The collar, cuffs and bottom hem are ribbed.

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The lace pattern also runs up the entire back of the sweater.

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Now, I would like to say that I am a yarn snob, and I really am one in my heart, but I have to be practical when knitting for my grandchildren. I can not afford to spend $20-$30 on just one skein of yarn, especially when most patterns take several skeins. I also want them to actually wear what I knit them and it’s a little scary to wear something that you know cost a ton to make, took a long time to make, and can only be washed by hand and laid out to dry. I want them to enjoy wearing what I knit them and not worry about getting it dirty or spilling something on it. So I once again used my go-to yarn, I Love This Yarn, purchased at Hobby Lobby at just $3.66 a skein. This sweater took less than 2 skeins.

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I will be knitting a second sweater in this pattern, in a larger size. But for now I am working on another wonderful pattern from Tweedysheep, with yet another in the next in line pattern pile.

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All the skilled women spun with their hands, and brought what they had spun, in blue and purple and scarlet material and in fine linen.  Exodus 35:25
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