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Broken Into Beautiful

‘Broken into beautiful’ was the theme this year for the Wise Choices Pregnancy Resource Center Annual Gala. The event of the year!Image

We were invited by our amazing friends Shane and Wendy, founders of the Pregnancy Resource Center, Shane being the President of the Board of Directors.

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Although I had heard of the Gala, year after year, this was our first time to attend.ImageImage

We, and many of our church family and friends along with half of wise county came together for this spectacular event.

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A local Pastor blessed the food,Image

and we were served a delicious dinner of grilled chicken breast topped with cheese and avocado, with sides of red potatoes, green beans, salad and rolls, by several of the youth from churches around wise county. 

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We ate and visited while the Decatur High School jazz band played. We heard the testimony of a father, who spoke for both he and his wife, and who chose life for their child, through the help and counsel of Wise Choices PRC.

Then came the guest speaker, Julie Ziglar Norman, daughter of the well known Zig Ziglar and also a resident of wise county, and gave her own testimony of brokenness and healing through her Lord and Savior.ImageImageImage

 

And while the Gala was a fund raising event, and a time of reflection and testimony, it was also a time of celebration. The celebration of life through each and every baby that was saved because of Wise Choices PRC! The celebration of every mother that found hope and for every woman that finds beauty and healing out of her brokenness.ImageImage

The Wise Choices PRC offers hope to so many women who have no hope.Image

 

Just a few of the miracles of Wise Choices PRC!

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An opportunity for you!Image

You can get a calendar through Wise Choices PRC
Photos by: 2 Chicks that Click
He has made everything beautiful.  Ecclesiastes 3:11

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The Valentine Box

That year, the teachers that were retiring had to take blocks of time off. It was different from years before and I never really understood why the state made them do it, but they did just the same, it had something to do with the new retirement laws.

 One particular third grade teacher was retiring that same year. She was an amazing teacher and her class was always run in an orderly fashion and the children knew what she expected of them and they were quite agreeable. It made my job as a substitute teacher an easy transition, for both me and the students as I spent an extended time with them throughout that semester.

Yes, the children were wonderful and very precious. There were, however, several “chiefs” in that class. You know, “take charge” kind of personalities. Not that that’s necessarily a bad thing, for she always encouraged her students to take responsibility and each had their own job to do and they loved and thrived at being viewed as trustworthy. But sometimes it would run over into worrying about other students and taking things upon themselves and therein was the problem.Image

But there, smack dab in the middle of the class was Michael. He had a hard time fitting in with the other children. I imagine it was because he wasn’t always clean, his clothes were consistently wrinkled and dirty and he was much bigger than all the other children. He was never prepared and he didn’t always have the things he needed for class. But maybe mostly because he spent most of the class time in a special class and was not able to do the same work as the other children, thus being labeled and children just seem to know these things.

It was obvious that Michael, although he was probably loved, was not cherished. He was not taken very good care of at home. His appearance told the tale of neglect and he talked of moving from school to school and now, he was living with a house full of cousins.  Image

With Valentines day fast approaching, and preparations being made to celebrate the beloved day, each child was assigned a project to be done at their own home. They were to make a Valentine box, decorated to reflect the holiday and bring it to school to be used at the Valentine’s party to hold the precious cards from their peers.Image

All the children had their boxes on display, lined up, side by side on the back counter. The boxes were covered with red and pink hearts, laces doilies, tissue paper and pictures of cherubs and cupids, some more elaborate than others.

All that is . . . except Michael.Image

On the day before the party and just about mid morning Michael entered the classroom , he had a shoe box tucked under his arm. I was sure the teacher from his special class had provided it for him, for he did not have it with him with he arrived at school that morning.

All the other children were sitting at their desks working quietly. He sat down at his own desk and pulled out a pair of scissors, glue and some pieces of construction paper and any other kinds of paper he could grab hold of. Globs of glue ran down the sides of the box as he began to cut the paper into strips and different shapes and glue them onto his box.

Now, I knew that he was supposed to have worked on his Valentine box at home, but I also knew that there was probably no one at home that would have helped him, so I kept silent, my heart breaking.

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 I saw the children looking at him and some watched him intently and one by one they came to me, “Mrs Morris,” they whispered, “Michael was supposed to make his box at home. He is not supposed to be working on it at school!”

And to each one of them I responded with a smile, “Go sit down and finished your work and worry about your own Valentine box.”Image

Michael worked diligently on his box and when he was finished he proudly put it on the back counter with all the other boxes, then sat back down at his desk, clearly very pleased.

The school day ended, and we all went to our own homes and that was the end of it. . . or was it?

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 Several days later, I was driving down a narrow back road to Weatherford, Texas, having what I thought was a pretty good conversation with my Lord. I was explaining to Him about so and so and telling Him about so and so and very honestly, having a very critical spirit. In truth, I was complaining to Him about people. And my very precious Lord very sweetly and very tenderly whispered to my heart, “Peggy, worry about your own Valentine box.”

I knew instantly how I was behaving and I started to laugh out loud.Image

So often, we are so worried about what other people are doing or what they should be doing that we don’t take a good look at ourselves. Isn’t that what He said, “And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?” It doesn’t matter if other people are doing what WE feel is right for them. We are to walk in obedience to our Lord and do what He directs us to do. It is not our job to worry about other people and to make sure they are doing what they are supposed to be doing. Our job is to pray, it is God’s job to deal with the problem according to His perfect will.

When we focus on our Lord and follow His direction for our lives then we will be walking in obedience. 

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 A smile always forms on my face when I think about that day the Lord spoke my very own words to my heart~Worry about your own Valentine box~ I will never forget it.  

I feel so grateful and blessed that He exposed my heart to me that day. He used a little boy to speak to my heart and reveal a wonderful spiritual truth.

Yes, He does still have to remind me from time to time, but I treasure those gentle reminders.Image

 “And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, “Let me remove the speck from your eye’” and look, a plank is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.” Matthew 7:3-5

 

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The Smoker

I had these great plans and had worked out all the details in my head.

I thought it would be great to ask people to donate 4 or 5 briskets so we could smoke them, shred them up and serve them on buns to the homeless.  

Then I got a phone call from Dwayne. “He told me that someone had given him my name and number and he had something he wanted to talk to me about. He had built himself a big smoker and it was his desire to use it for ministry and did I think that would be something I would be interested in?”

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I couldn’t believe the timing~or could I? God’s timing is always perfect!

“Yes! I was definitely interested!” We talked through the details of what we thought would work for the trip to serve the homeless just a couple of weeks away. I told him that I thought 4 or 5 briskets would be enough and he said he thought maybe more like 7-8. We both agreed to talk to our congregation that next Sunday and see how many donations we could get. And that was our plan–however God had plans of His own and people began to give!  Image

The day before our scheduled trip to serve I began to get calls and text, some of our most dedicated helpers were canceling. Sickness had been plaguing people all over the globe and our people had not been spared. Others had things that came up and I begin to wonder if we would have enough people to do such a big job. I trusted that my Lord would provide, as He always does.

 

On that morning, we arrived at church and found the kitchen full of supplies for the meal.Image

And people just started to show up and it was more than had ever made the trip before. I did not count but I am sure it was over thirty people. We ended up needing to use four church vans and five individual vehicles. Our caravan drove down highway 35, journeying together on this ministry that our Lord had blessed so abundantly more than I could have ever imagined.Image

We ended up having ten briskets and all in all we served well over 200 sandwiches along with chips and drink.

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Dwayne’s state of the art smoker was amazing and not only were we, the workers, and they, the homeless blessed beyond words, Dwayne left that day oozing joy! The Lord had used Dwayne and he was blessed. His hearts desire and his hard work had left him with a gratifying joy that could only come from the Lord.

 

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Isn’t that so like our Lord? He takes our meager little efforts and out of His great goodness and out of His endless storehouse, “is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think.” (Eph. 3:20)

And as for His workers, people from different churches throughout wise county, working together in unity and in love. Our focus was on Him and our efforts were for Him and because our eyes were on Him we were one! And His love poured out of our hearts that day and we were so grateful!

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For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height–to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.  Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever.  Amen.  Ephesians 3:14-21

 

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In His Arms

It was a cold day in February, much like today when we laid our baby in the ground.

She was in the arms of Jesus even before she breathed one breath of sin air. Even before I heard one cry, felt one suckle, or caressed her soft tiny cheek, she was no more.Image

Me, young and confused, groping and stumbling around in the midst of it all. The emptiness inside my womb felt the loss, the loneliness and my heart bled.

A young mother waiting, anticipating the arrival of her first born daughter, experiencing the movement and hearing the heartbeat from within her own body, suddenly was shut off and I turned inward.

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No answers, no explanations offered could comfort a grieving mother.  Image

Everything rolled into one and the lines blurred. Even after all these years my mind cannot separate the events that happened so long ago, the news that there was no longer a heartbeat, giving birth, the funeral, the voices are hazy and unfocused.  Image

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And yet, after 31 years, talking about it, writing it down feels like I am picking a scab off a deep wound that refuses to heal completely through. Yes, I have shared with some close friends, but this here, writing my heart, closes the gap of those years and it all starts again, this empty place inside my heart.

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But . . . . it is enough for this:

I am changed. This is one of the many things that He has used to changed me. I am growing up in the Lord, and I cling to Hope Himself, resting in the folds of His love and His peace, I see truth more clearly, filtered through the sweet words and promises of my Lord.  Image

And it is enough for this:

Knowing she experiences exceedingly great joy every day being in the presence of Jesus!

This mother’s heart takes comfort in knowing that she never had to experience pain, nor sorrow, nor crying. (Rev. 21:4) And though my empty arms never held her tight, never swaddled her within my folds, I know that she is waiting for me there, and when I arrive I will hold her for the first time, beautiful and complete.

Because of His peace, which surpasses all understanding and because of His exceedingly great and precious promises. . . it is enough.

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And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain for the former things have passed away. Revelation 21:4

 

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The Get Well Cards

After 15 days of sickness, the virus turning into the flu, I was beyond blessed by a very dear friend and my 5th and 6th grades Sunday School class.Image

It wasn’t just the sickness, but the isolation and the longing in my heart to see those that I love so much!

Imagine my great surprise and joy as I checked my mail on that day and found the beautiful cards that blessed and strengthened my heart!!

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 I felt so blessed and so loved!Image

The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance.  Psalm 16:6

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Aniyah Grace

Aniyah~Look to God                                                                                                                    Grace~The free and unmerited favour of God shown toward men.

It was 4:44 am when my phone went off.  It was a text from Andrea that said, “I think it’s time.”       I woke up the guys and we gathered our stuff and headed the 20 minute drive to their house.    The moon stood just over our house as I waited in the truck for this long awaited journey.Image

A midwife was already there when we arrived and was preparing everything for the delivery.  Two more would soon arrive. Aria was still sound asleep in her bed and we settled in. Image

Everyone had a role.  Gumps made coffee and waited for his playmate to wake, and I pulled out the frozen meals we prepared a couple of weeks ago for this moment, checking in with Andrea from time to time.  Jason stayed close to his wife and Kory slept on the couch.

Aria woke about 8:30 and I fixed her a pancake, then they came to me and said it was time for me to come into the room.  Gumps took Aria into her room and closed the door for a long winter’s play. A dream come true for her.  Gumps all to herself and they played for hours as they waited.

I experienced the miracle of Aria’s birth and now I would be here for the miracle of Aniyah also.  And how else can you explain it?  This overpowering love that burst in your heart and runs wet down your face. And grace?  Well, you know, it’s that unmerited favour from God, that which you don’t deserve and you know it well. But there it is all the same, like a glimpse of heaven, a glimpse of His glory in this tiny little person. Grace that is written in the face of your own child as she bears the weight and pain of her delivery and the beauty of her as she gives what all mother’s give. . . her all.

And the father?  So gentle and loving, whispers of love and encouragement to his beloved as she labors on, and he wipes her brow and my tears fall. And he turns to me and says, “Come look, she’s here!” And through the blurry vision I stumble over and my eyes see her for the very first time and I am looking grace straight in the face.  

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And my heart knows, it is Him, the miracle maker that did this just for us. And we look to God and rejoice, not just in this new born baby, but in the Gift giver Himself!

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And Aria meets her sister for the very first time and one by one they come and see this long awaited blessing.ImageImageImageImageImage

 

And our hearts are full and thankful this day.

 

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The Evans family.

 

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Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights,  James 1:17a

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Herbal Medicine

After a week of having a nasty virus, I developed a secondary infection.  

Fever, cough, tightness in my chest with still the left overs from the virus.  Not good timing since our new grand daughter has only been here on this earth for four days. This is one sad mammy, not being able to be around her or Aria.

Going to the doctor is a last resort, having no insurance and trying to stay away from antibiotics, so I try to rely on herbal medicines.

 But, in his eagerness to see his grand babies, gumps forgot my Echinacea. When my daughter called to see how I was feeling I asked her if she had any on hand and she said she would look.

When Martin arrived home a while later he carried with him a whole arsenal of medicines from our daughter.

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My Christmas present from her and the family was a set of herbal teas with a container to steep the tea.  For the past several days I have been drinking 3-4 cups of the Double-E Immune Booster with raw honey.  Super yummy! You can find the tea here:

http://www.bulkherbstore.com

 

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Raw honey, what can I say?  I buy it in a five gallon bucket!  I use it everyday.Image

 

She sent Echinacea and ALJ, a bronchial and respiratory support herb.Image

Promethazine is for the cough and chest congestion. And oh yea . . . a very sweet sleep.Image

This is her beloved thieves oil, an essential oil, consisting of cloves, lemon, cinnamon, rosemary and eucalyptus. The combination works as a antibacterial and antiviral as well as many other things.  I rubbed it on my chest and throat, but you can also simmer it on the stove.  This really is amazing stuff and it smells wonderful!Image

 

On my way to feeling better.

 

He sent His word and healed them. Psalm 107:20a

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His Hands~His Feet

He feel asleep on the couch and his dad tried to wake him up to go to bed, but he wouldn’t budge.  I worried that he would get too cold, so I covered him with a blanket and turned the heater up a couple of degrees, then found my own way to bed.

I couldn’t sleep, I thought he would get cold out there, the fire had died out and the temperature had been really dropping at night.  

Then my thoughts turned towards them. After the last 4 1/2 years I could not ever lay in my comfy warm bed without thinking about them.

I have seen them, lined up side by side along the street, stretched out for the night. They are the overflow of the surrounding shelters that already held it’s limits.

I read about it today, that for Christmas night a hotel in Dallas housed 500 homeless people. For just that night they had a warm bed, a hot meal and a place to get out of the freezing cold.  

On the last trip to the streets I met a mother of four, homeless. Her 8 year old daughter stood there with us as she talked. She told me she had lost her home a few months back and they were waiting to get into the women’s and children’s shelter. Through her tears she told me they could stay at one place but they would not allow her 16 year old son to stay and she couldn’t leave him.  I prayed with her and promised to continue praying, and I just can’t stop thinking about them. 

How do you hunker down in ice and snow? How do you console your children at Christmas when there is no place to lay your head and no place to get out from under the icy breath of the arctic air that blows through your layers and bites your bones.

How do you keep going back time and time again to the same stories that rip your heart out?  How can you not?  Didn’t He tell us to go?

But whoever has this world’s goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him?  My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth.  1 John 3: 17-18

And doesn’t He tell us that whatever we do for the least of these, we do it for Him?

“Then the King will say to those on His right hand, ‘Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world; ‘for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.”   Matthew 25:34-36

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He who oppresses the poor reproaches his Maker, But he who honors Him has mercy on the needy.  Proverbs 14:31

 

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The Gift From Nazareth

She handed the gift to me and said, “This came from Nazareth.”Image

I held the carved piece of olive tree in my hand and my emotions overtook me.

From Nazareth? The very same Nazareth that my Lord lived and grew up in? The Carpenter that probably worked with wood just like this?

I held back the tears as my heart took it all in.Image

I held just a shred, a particle of something that Jesus may have encountered. A everyday part of His life, this olive tree. She had said that the olive trees in Israel are very old. How old I wondered? When I looked it up it said that olive trees could live for several centuries. It said they could have a life span of 2000 years. Could His hands have touched this very same tree?Image

How appropriate, this carved Nativity, here just a few days before the celebration of His birth and exactly from the place He grew up. 

My heart felt a newness of joy, a connection stretching as far away as Israel as I held this new treasure in my hands. There were no words, but He knew what my heart felt, what words could not express.

 

Philip found Nathanael and said to him,  “We have found Him of whom Moses in the law, and also the prophets, wrote–Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.  John 1:45

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Daddy’s Teddy Bear

In an age of instant gratification, where a new toy is just the short drive to Wal Mart away.Image

Where a new video game is just the length of a credit card and waiting is something that was only done in the past.Image

 

The anticipation and excitement of getting that special present for Christmas, the one thing you had waited for and wanted for so long, is now clouded and distorted by the greed and desire to possess it all.

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Now is the mindset that more is better and even more is best and where in the world is our treasure?

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Hand me downs are unheard of for we are far above owning cast offs.Image

In this time, here and now, our children know very little of laboring with their hands. Of the satisfaction that comes with the physical exertion and toil to achieve the desired goal.Image

It started with us you know, the ones that love them beyond words, wanting to give . . . give . . . give, until the gift was not enough. Until our message to them was the more you own the happier you get. 

And didn’t He warn us to not conform to this world? (Romans 12:2)   

And I ask you again, where is our real treasure?Image

Then Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him, “One thing you lack; Go your way, sell whatever you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, take up your cross, and follow Me.”   Mark 10:21

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